Lucky Number 3??

This is the 4th try, but it's the third "fresh" round (the type of round where we start from the beginning, growing eggs and hoping for embryos).  We're hoping very much this is lucky #3!!  So far, it's been the best round.  They were able to retrieve 8 eggs, 7 of which were mature.  Of those 7, 5 fertilized.  Of those 5, 4 continued to grow.  We didn't know until the morning of the embryo transfer (yesterday) whether any of those 4 would be left - since they get left alone for 2 days before the transfer.  The morning of, we found out that they were all still developing, but some more quickly than others.  We opted to transfer 2 embryos - haven't tried that yet!!  Then we had to wait another day to find out whether the other 2 were able to continue development and hit the mark where they could be frozen.  And holy crap, if they didn't.  We got 4 embryos out of this round.  I still can't believe it.

It's easy to get too wrapped up in the misery.  The waiting, the hoping, the failure.  I was so excited in the beginning.  Excited to get started, because this will start our family.  Because with all the information we had at that time, this was the solution.  But that round ended terribly, and we just kept getting bad news.  When the last round ended with not a single embryo, I felt like I had been punched in the face.  I told my hubby the other week that I felt like someone told me we were going "glamping" but when I got there, there was no bathroom, tents with holes in them, mosquitoes everywhere, and a bear ate our snacks.  It's hard to be excited when you have no snacks.  Then something happened.  I was talking to a co-worker about the next round, doing my very best emo-kid-here-we-go-again and she got excited.  Like, we were on the phone and by the sound of her voice, I think she was ready to jump up and down.  I feel like that flipped a switch for me.  Helped bring me back to myself, well, as much of myself as I can be.  The sunshine is helping, too (although definitely missing it the last few days!)

To recap: 2 in the uterus, 2 in the freezer, and 2 weeks to wait for a pregnancy test.  2 weeks is forever to wait for the answer, but luckily I have plenty of work to do for school and for work so I actually think the time will go by pretty quickly.