The Two Week Wait and Mother's Day

We're nearing the end of the dreaded "two week wait."  This is the agonizing stretch of time between the day that the embryo(s) is(are) transferred and the day you find out whether or not they got settled in and continued to grow.  I was lucky enough to be distracted for the first week by the end of my grad school class...a paper and essay style final exam kept me pretty busy on top of work...but those are turned in and now we anxiously await the grading process.  It seems the closer we get to the blood test, the more anxious and nervous I become.  I've even started dreaming about it!  I've tried to stay calm, cool, and collected through this round, but coming so close to the end those three things are in very short supply.

Regardless of the results this week, I still know that the next few weeks are going to be tough.  On top of the waiting, it's Mother's Day.  Luckily, it's also hubster's birthday, so that's a good distraction.  This time last year, we were saying goodbye to Grandma, (hubster's side) who was an important part of our lives.  Grandma's little dog has been super snuggly with me the last week or so (in fact, I had to move my laptop for her royal highness to have her spot back on my lap).  I think she is missing her a lot, too.  It makes me sad to know that our eventual children will miss out because they won't get to meet her.  And finally, our original due date is quickly approaching.  For obvious reasons, that's also playing with my emotions.

There are just a few more days until what is hopefully the first blood test.  If the specific hormone is elevated, we'll have another one a few days after that to verify that it is still increasing as it should. After that, we would start the ultrasounds (and after the miscarriage, I imagine we'll be holding our breaths a little at every one).  However, if the hormone isn't elevated, it's back to the drawing board.  It's strange, you feel a little like you should just know because it's your body and you should know if something is different.  But the reality is, there's no magical symptom that proves anything.  There's no way to know until it's time for the blood test.  All you can really do it follow the rules (take the meds and vitamins, no heavy lifting, no strenuous exercise, no sushi, no booze, etc) and hope.