Day 10 again

The last cycle took something out of me.  Though, I should probably say all of the prior rounds took something out of me, and it just really piled up.  Luckily, I have an awesome bestie that lives in Florida.  I took a long weekend there (though, let's be real...long weekends are not long enough!!) to recharge my batteries a bit.  Most of my time off of work the last year has been spent on bloodwork, procedures, and those devastating mental health days.  I was absolutely thrilled to get some time away (and see one of my very best friends).  I don't know if it was the sunshine, my girlfriend, or just the break but I'm feeling a little more like me.  Or, rather, a better version of me.  I'm asking more questions and being more assertive.  It's helping me feel like I have control over this, even though there is no way to really have any control.  Also, now it's finally (maybe) spring.  I keep driving by farms with colts nursing from their mothers, and little lambs running around...it's refreshing and sparks hope!

So, not a whole lot to write about before.  The cycles are pretty boring.  Shots in the evening, bloodwork and ultrasound in the morning, results and updated dosing in the afternoon.  Repeat. Oh, and the rest of my life fits in there, too...work, school, etc.  My first appointment was on day 4, then 6, 8, 9, and finally today day 10.  Here is the best part: that's it!!  The first round went 12 days, the second fresh round went 15.  There is something about hitting day 12 that starts to feel disheartening.  I feel completely exhausted, starting to get a little hopeless, my skin hurts where the injections go, just all around feel awful.  Not this time, though.  This time 10 days is it!  Tonight (well, early tomorrow morning) we do the 'trigger' shot.  That's the last one.  It's administered 36 hours before the egg retrieval procedure, which will be Friday afternoon.  This round my meds were changed up.  That seemed to have done the trick, but we're still at wait and see.  They still have to retrieve the eggs, then they have to fertilize and mature enough to transfer next Wednesday.  But, for now, I'm so excited to be at the end of the meds portion of this round and ready for retrieval on Friday.  A good friend pointed out that this process is all about baby steps.  Of course, that's the goal, too