How do you feel?

I spend most of my day alone.  I travel a good bit for work, all by car, and I've always found driving to be where I do a lot of thinking.  And singing like I'm performing a concert, but during the workday, I can't afford to lose my voice.  This is good for problem solving, but not so much for problems that can't be solved.

Recently, I got a very nice email referring me to someone who had been through IVF cycles.  In case I wanted to reach out to someone, because the sender of the email knew that they couldn't relate.

I know there have been times that I've isolated myself lately.  I won't apologize for it because I think it's normal.  Some days are just easier than others.  Sometimes I'm just not in the mood to be around people.  Some days it's hard to keep on a happy face, and no one wants to be a downer.  This isn't how I've dealt with things before, but this is different.  I don't know whether it's me being older (not old), or if it's just the subject material. 

Today, I feel exhausted.  I've been having weird dreams lately, and trouble sleeping.  Maybe it's the new medication or just general stress.  I feel like I could sleep all day, if not for this pesky job 😉.  Just kidding, I also have a class presentation tonight for one of my MBA classes online.  I tend to fill my schedule, I've always done that.  My husband says he thinks I'm just not happy unless I'm completely what-the-hell-was-I-thinking busy.  He's right!  I was unhappy after college because I felt like I had nothing to do.  So I took cake decorating classes.  But anyway, I'm also hopeful. Last night we finally got to start the real meds.  12ish days to go...maybe depending on how it goes.  You really can only take it one day at a time, more than that is hard to handle..